Toxic Media
I'm getting unfollowed across platforms and it's tiring. I find people are super friendly, welcoming and positive. Until?? I don't know. At some point I realise they unfollowed/unfriended me.
And some who mute immediately after I reciprocate. I'm not sure what's more difficult to deal with.
Did I do something wrong? Or did they disagree with some opinion I have? Or did they just want something from me? I don't know.
I find social media quite toxic. I want to clean up the way I use it. I want to be authentic. I want to have authentic interactions and 'relationships'. I want to find genuine community and learn what that means. I realise most of the weirdness is unconscious, and that's fine. I probably still do it to sometimes. But I don't want to.
I don't want to be unapproachable, but I do need to address my boundaries. Because I'm so tired of feeling like someone took something from me. I'm tired of feeling unseen, ignored, unwanted.
Social media matters. It does affect us, if we use it. I want to feel connected when I use it, not isolated.